"Bing Crosby"

I thought of you every day. Every second of every day.
And then after awhile, I stopped.
And then we both stopped.
And now you're going away forever.
And I am not supposed to feel like I want that back.
I know better, I don't like you again. I don't want you back in my life.
It just makes me sad that you're leaving,
And with you,
you're taking a giant piece of my identity.
Every day I thought about you.
You were the center of my attention, you were what I smiled about.
For almost eight months. Do you know how long that is?
Do you remember? You know.
You know every part of me. Or, you did.
Maybe you forgot.
God, that would kill me.
Why? I'm not sure. I still remember all of you.
I remember it every day.
No, I don't want you back.
No, I don't want you back here.
But every time
My eyes well up
And I think, "Christ, this is stupid."
But I can't stop, because I miss how happy I was with you.
Every single time I was with you, at your house, in your room,
At the movies, at school, touching me, touching you
I remember it all, every day, and I remember that I
Was the happiest I've ever been, even if maybe
At the time
I didn't really know that.
And now your heart and your brain,
[God, you're so like me.]
They're taking off and going to [where?]
Vermont, like you said you would.
I'm proud of you. I'm so happy you've grown like you have.
But I will always miss you.
You will always be this weird, locked-up part of me
And I will never have the closure
Needed
To stop crying about it.