I want to hit you so badly. I want to knock your tiny little baby teeth out of your fat head.
I want to rip apart everything you stand for
Today you condescended somebody for handling raw meat
You are so full of shit, you know.
You haven't had a relationship in three years
It's not because nobody is good enough
It's because nobody likes you.
You fucking stupid, hypocritical bitch.
I deserve better.

It it bad that
EVERY second of EVERY day
I want your hands on me?
Is it bad that
I started crying because
I thought of us going to college in different places?

...I think it's bad that
When I'm standing next to you
I don't think of anything except
Your tongue in my mouth.

Is that bad?
I want it to be.

I CAN'T DO THIS
I CAN'T DO THIS AT ALL.
I HAVE TO STOP
AND I HAVE TO CRY.
THIS IS RIDICULOUS
WHEN I CAN'T
DO ONE
ASSIGNMENT
WITHOUT GETTING OVERWHELMED
AND CRYING BECAUSE
I DON'T WANT TO READ GIANT DOCUMENTS
ABOUT JACKSONIAN DEMOCRACY
BECAUSE I'M TOO TIRED
BUT I PROMISED HER AND I LIED AND SAID
I HAD MOST OF IT DONE BUT I DON'T
I DON'T UNDERSTAND -ANY- OF IT!
HA! NONE AT ALL!
I CANT DO IT. I REALLY CAN'T.
THE END.

I actually have no idea what I'm supposed to write anymore.

This house I hate is not my home.
The rooms I roam are not my own.
The room which I lay in is not right
So I lay awake and I cry at night.
The walls are white, the floors are cold
I wish everything was peeled and old.
I want the walls to look lived in,
I want the floors to look caved in.
I want to live on the ground floor,
I want to have a closing door.
Every place is dismal and small
Nothing belongs to me at all.

I Went To Church This Morning

I went to church this morning
And I sat down in the pews.
I sat through all the hymns,
and I began to think of you.

I wondered what you'd think if you knew that I was here.
I wondered if I was supposed to feel that somehow, God was near.

I went to church this morning,
A yoga-loving Buddhist
Pastor Tony looked at me,
And I knew that he knew this.

I went to church this morning,
and I didn't take Communion.
Forgive me, but the blood of Christ
Is not what I dip my food in.

They played religious music,
then they went up and broke the bread.
I thought I'd be a hypocrite,
so I sat and stared instead.

They had a "crown of thorns".
It was sitting on the table.
They all believed in Jesus.
But me, I wasn't able.

I went to church this morning,
Around my neck, I wore no cross.
I wore a silver aum instead
To support my Eastern cause.

I went to church this morning,
And I listened to them sing.
I only thought of how false it was
And how it didn't mean a thing.

The prayers which they offered forth
Seemed to be falling on deaf ears.
But these people openly admitted
Their sickness, hopes and fears.

Starting their "Our Fathers",
The congregation truly believed
That God was going to help them
If they knelt down on their knees.

I went to church this morning,
And it solidified my belief
That church is not my favorite thing
And brings people no relief.

I went to church this morning,
And I don't believe in God.
I do not care that Jesus
Was nailed upon a cross.

I don't believe in heaven,
I don't think I'll go to hell.
I left the church as I entered
And all was good and well.

Since when is competition the root of all evil?
I'm no capitalist, but I don't think that absolute equality is the way to go.
You know what? You have stupid kids. They're born stupid.
We need stupid people and we need smart people. We do not need everybody inthe world to think that they're as good as the person beside them. Because while they have the same rights and opportunities, they do not have the mental capacity to embrace those opportunities.
There is no reason that people who are different should be "equalized".